Faith V Fear

The last couple of days have been a battle. I love prayer and I love being specific with it. Paul says in 1 Thess 5v17 "pray contuinally". That for me is enough! No matter where you are or what you're doing, there's always time for prayer. Too often though we rely on prayer because we can't do anything or we want a "Jim'll'Fixit" solution. The last number of months have brought radical change and I've seen God provide in ways like never before. One of the changes has been looking finding and buying a new home. God has blown us away as to how quick things have moved in this area. No joke, in the space of 2 days we saw a house we loved and got our offer accepted. Everything has been going so quick with getting a new Job, a school for Naomi and a house that we've been so humbled and in awe of what God has done. So here's the thing, Over the last 2 weeks things have stalled (paperwork etc) and its been driving me crazy. I think because all things have gone so quick over these number of months this seems so slow. In this "stalling phase" (which I know will end and all will work out!) I've started to allow "fear" in my thoughts and heart which is not usual for me but very real right now. Springsteen has a song called "Devils and Dust" which God was using to very clearly speak to me. I listened to the song on repeat for an age on tuesday due to the lyrics.

I got God on my side
I'm just trying to survive
What if what you do to survive
Kills the things you love
Fear's a powerful thing
It can turn your heart black you can trust
It'll take your God filled soul
And fill it with devils and dust

My Joy in my relationship with God (and with others!) was being impacted badly. God is with me constantly yet I was fearing loniness and failure. My desire is to be filled with God's spirit 24/7 and I have to work so hard at that. Yesterday I was praying and fasting over a number of issuses and it refocused my mind and heart. The peace was incredible. There is a battle for our hearts between Faith and Fear.
Hebrews 11v1 says
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 12v1-2 says
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

My eyes need to be fixed on Jesus more